One Month Has Passed
2018-05-03
It has been one month since I have to let Pompom go. I still feel guilty about that but I am telling myself I could not make him suffer. I have surround myself with picture and memories of Pompom but that does not really help. I try to keep myself busy by waking up one hour early and going to swim everyday.
I still cannot stop thinking about what I could have done differently. People are telling me I did everything (maybe more than most people) I can. But at the end I lost Pompom. I am very sorry I could not cure him, help him. I cannot forgive myself even when I know there was nothing more I can do.
Please rest in peace. And if you are somewhere, please look for me and stay with me.